Dreams in Darkness...

In hopes of not drifting in and out during Human Anatomy, deciding to get to bed very soon and will postpone writing until later in the day. Weird dream(s) yesterday, one part of which involved me turning a corner into a kitchen/room and, lo and behold, Mr. Faceless was there. Can't remember much of what happened after that, but remember something along the lines of being knocked to the floor...I certainly don't remember getting up after said point. I think that makes this dream number 2(that I can remember) involving him...Hopefully this whole thing doesn't turn out to be a Slenderblog...What a surprise twist!(But seriously, no.)

I've already typed more than I intended to, so might as well finish-ish. Once again, ignored-ish upon saying hi. Granted, we were crossing both crossing the always dangerous street, so not totally un-understandable that she would be especially focused on the road, but...Not sure whether I'm actually being logical or overly rationalizing...Idk. Again, I don't know what the root of this whole thing is, though I'd really like to know; that being said, I doubt I'll get an answer anytime soon and a direct approach would be, most likely, ill-welcomed. Guess, as before, we'll just have to be observant.

That's more or less it. A few comments on training at another point, but that can wait. Probably won't be able to make it "tomorrow" due to helping out with dorm stuff from 6:30-9. Also depends on studying and whatnot. Maybe if stuff ends early, I'll head there for a little bit before the show.

More thoughts for a later date, I suppose. Here's hoping my dream this evening is less faceless men and more relaxing...Or, if not relaxing, entertaining, at least.

Filler #3

Strange dreams last night. Have MCAT class in less than 20 min. Copious amounts of studying later. Will describe later on. Until then.

March towards Ragnarok

It's been an interesting past few days, for certain. I'll try to keep this short-ish.

Friday's show went fairly well, despite AC being out. Went to Ninjutsu before in what's been quite a while and it was certainly good to be back. It's definitely been missed, to say the least.

Last GWMS class went blah-ish. Speaking fails happened a-plenty. Not sure why exactly, but meh.

Another note to look out for...I think I touched on this in an earlier post, but, in case I didn't...I certainly do regret the whole way things have gone with AR...Suppose I've at least partly to blame for it. Meh. Seems things are going more downhill on that one. Not sure what I did, but it would seem I am being avoided. Again, wish I could do something, but, really, there isn't a whole lot I can do, without it seeming awkward. Guess we'll see how things go tomorrow in class and go from there, I guess...Once again, meh.

On all these fronts, I suppose we'll see how things go. Guess we'll more or less have to just go with the flow. Plus, I'm supposed to be receiving a call from my uncle about his wedding...Not the wedding itself, but something related. Apparently it's secret or something(that is, the subject of the call to me)...Seems extremely peculiar, but we'll see.

Also, here's hoping for an MH update tonight or, at the very least, tomorrow. Tomorrow certainly already has the makings of a very interesting day....

Filler #2

Too tired. Will write something tomorrow after Calc quiz. Would write now, but getting close to passing out levels. Plus, I'd like to be more mentally there in Anatomy Lecture in the morning relative to last Friday...Anyways, until then...

A Humorous Humerus

It's certainly been an interesting day. Did one more batch of anatomy studying of the appendicular skeleton and, without using the sheet, remembered each term and correctly labeled it. All 100 or so of them. Not too shabby.

Calc and Human Anatomy went pretty well, I suppose. Nothing too terribly interesting, aside from getting into rotating lines around axes in Calc (Washers...OH NOOOOOEEES!!!).

The Town Hall meeting...Admittedly, it went better than expected, though I suppose different than expected is more accurate of the evening. The whole hate crime itself wasn't really discussed at all which, again, was rather unexpected; ultimately, perhaps it was for the better, so as to not get bogged down in what is, to me, more or less a dead end of discussion waiting to happen. Doesn't mean it shouldn't have been discussed necessarily(Dean did mention the details of the event), but there, to me, isn't a whole lot to say about it.

Instead the discussion was about diversity and whatnot. Can't remember every little thing said, but Ted(can't remember his last name) said some pretty good stuff; it had something to do with the indirect effects on others via changing ourselves. As I've said to other people, individual responsibility is absolutely crucial is so many things...Just some random quotes from the evening:
RR: "You don't burn down the village to roast the pig....You can learn to disagree without being disagreeable" (both of which were others' quotes, but still)
WG: something about students and "making excellent work" and following our passions
: to faculty, allowing students to express their passions.

I feel like my comments weren't all that profound/ concise, quite frankly; my first, to answer the "What does it mean to be a diverse community", revolved around protecting the freedom/rights of individuals and that their are certain responsibilities of the individuals of the community and the community itself, but that what they specifically are are not so certain. My second one, which I said after WG's comments, revolved around the two most important assignments to me: the (first) memoir and my arthritis paper assignment. Honestly, felt kind of embarrassed after both, since, again, didn't feel like I contributed a whole lot; the whole matter probably was not helped by the fact that there were probably 150 or so students/faculty there and the fact my heart was pretty much in marathon-mode after talking that first time.

Still, I'm very glad I stayed for both the initial Town Hall and the after-session; as it were, I stayed until about 10 pm(about 3 hours total). Got to talk with some pretty cool people and meet a few new folk. Rev Rice also talked to me a little bit(more like some comments here and there); he suggested that I consider teaching, as well as becoming a doctor. In addition, he mentioned something along the lines of being curious about/ looking forward to the dedication section of the book(s) I'll write. Can't remember exact quote for that last bit, but something along those lines. Either way, was a little taken aback(in a good way, that is) by his comments.

Also, there was something about AM's positivity that...I don't know. It just made me, at the time, very happy and glad I stayed for the post-Town Hall thing, rather than immediately going to study.

I'll definitely have to think this whole matter over in my head some more. I just feel...different somehow. For the better, I think. And, hopefully, I can become..."better" somehow and use that improvement to help others. But the key is, improvement of the community starts with self-improvement. Or so I believe, at least.

I'll probably end up reflecting on this whole matter more some point down the road...

One other note for the day: things are really seemingly awkward with AR. Not sure what the specific reason(s) is (well, aside from everything in the past), but yeah. It's bothersome, but what can one do. As I neglected to mention in the random thoughts below, one other goal of mine is to, hopefully, patch things up there. Not sure how, but, again, I'll just let things happen and we'll see. Not gonna force the issue or anything.

That's it for tonight. Should probably get in bed soon, so I can wake up bright and early for Injection Number...7, I think? Sounds about right. No real noticeable improvement yet, though I'm still hopeful. Doesn't mean injecting won't still suck, but alas.

I suspect I'm going to have some pretty bizarre dreams this evening. We'll see, I suppose. Also, really hope I'm not tempting fate, so to speak, by doing that "specific"-themed show...

Randomness and MCAT madness

Finally, time to post. Week has been good. Wegman's banquet is always good, particularly after that 3 hour intro MCAT course. Surprisingly, don't have much work at all today. Aside from 3 hours of MCAT class, about an hour of anatomy lab studying and a half hour of anatomy lecture studying. Maybe will re-look over my Calc 2 hw, since I left some of them incomplete. Kind of hoping the professor spends time explaining the more difficult problems(as in, three graphs and how to set it up) so we don't have to spend half the class period going over hw. Alas.

Should be an interesting week, I suppose. Chance of MOAR snow/sleet mid-week, I believe. Probably won't affect classes, though, considering our GWMS professor came despite the pretty poor conditions last Wednesday. Which is a good thing, I think. The class has been interesting, so far, though I do hope we get a bit more discussion in during class. Also, cat dissection for anatomy lab. Can't say I'm particularly looking forward to that, but we'll see.

Oh yeah. Still never got to those random musings. I feel like it's a little lame to start getting into this already into the semester but alas. Just some goals/ points for this semester:
1) For a while(relatively speaking), I've been wanting answers to certain questions. I can only attest to this for myself, of course, but I'm not a particular fan of seeing only part of the picture of events(yay for vagueness). Anyways, I wish I had gotten to ask some of the more important questions in my one opportunity to clarify what happened exactly, but alas, didn't get the chance to completely ask them / I'm terrible about remembering exactly what things to ask. I don't want to press the issue, as it'd probably be particularly awkward for me to ask said person to talk about said past things. Still, I'm hopeful, sometime before graduation, I'll get the answers to those questions.
2) Dreams: I keep forgetting that I also wanted to keep track of dreams and whatnot on here or something. A recurring theme: I can't seem to actually damage anyone in my dreams. Next time I have a specific example, I shall be sure to record it, but yeah.

I feel like I had a third random thing, but it's been a while since I even thought of writing down those random thoughts, so it's possible one of them has slipped my mind. Aw well. The first one is the main one I remember wanting to mention.

Anyways, that's all I've got. Monday evening should also be interesting, depending on how that Town Hall meeting goes. We'll see, I suppose...

Darkness settles on roofs and walls...

Another wonderful weekend gone and past and, arguably, the most productive weekend I've had to date. As in, productive, but not rushing productive because I need to get that paper done for Monday productive. Little step, little step, as they say. Took the practice test for Kaplan. Not God-awful terrible, but certainly needs work. More or less what I expected. There's quite some time from now until the real deal, so plenty of time to improve.

And once again, will postpone random thoughts until another day. Tomorrow is looking like it won't be too too bad, so maybe we'll write something then. We'll see.

Until then...